1 00:00:03,403 --> 00:00:06,663 "Carefully monitor your supply of prescription medication..." 2 00:00:08,509 --> 00:00:14,079 "Dede I'm sorry I cannot help you please try again..." 3 00:00:14,136 --> 00:00:17,736 "Always take your medication exactly as prescribed by your doctor..." 4 00:00:18,381 --> 00:00:20,381 "Searching for drug interactions..." 5 00:00:22,707 --> 00:00:24,837 This video is for the 6 00:00:24,889 --> 00:00:26,859 customer service people at Shield Health, 7 00:00:26,912 --> 00:00:30,022 cuz I just had the most horrendous 8 00:00:30,076 --> 00:00:31,986 experience at the doctor's office today 9 00:00:32,038 --> 00:00:33,410 so I'm going to put it on the Internet and maybe 10 00:00:33,440 --> 00:00:35,353 it's going to go viral and we can all do 11 00:00:35,383 --> 00:00:38,403 something about the American healthcare industry or... 12 00:00:39,107 --> 00:00:41,907 "never change your dosage without talking to your providers..." 13 00:00:42,191 --> 00:00:43,651 So... so... 14 00:00:44,073 --> 00:00:46,113 So I went in to get my Oxycontin refill today 15 00:00:47,157 --> 00:00:49,127 but there's a new doctor 16 00:00:49,180 --> 00:00:51,330 who lectures me like it's a crime 17 00:00:51,383 --> 00:00:53,573 to be in fucking pain for a long time 18 00:00:53,625 --> 00:00:57,235 wants to upsell me on therapy unrelated to my pain 19 00:00:57,290 --> 00:01:00,580 then ask me all these questions like I was insane 20 00:01:00,634 --> 00:01:05,024 warning me about "my overall health condition Ms Chow, so how about you come in for 21 00:01:05,080 --> 00:01:08,734 more exams how about a week from now?" I mean give me my fucking Oxy already. 22 00:01:08,764 --> 00:01:11,354 Or perks even better or whatever to cope 23 00:01:11,408 --> 00:01:13,458 do you want me to start shooting up that dope? 24 00:01:13,510 --> 00:01:15,419 Cuz I'm in huge pain got a lot of 25 00:01:15,472 --> 00:01:17,492 shit to deal with right now so stop 26 00:01:17,544 --> 00:01:19,805 guilt tripping me you fucking racist cow 27 00:01:19,858 --> 00:01:22,298 because my last name is not Chow 28 00:01:22,351 --> 00:01:24,491 I mean how can you not get it right 29 00:01:24,544 --> 00:01:28,224 it's Dede Cheung. My name is Dede Cheung! 30 00:01:42,266 --> 00:01:45,556 My name is Dede Cheung, a former photojournalist. 31 00:01:45,610 --> 00:01:48,920 I was snapping photos for the Times in the city of LA, 32 00:01:48,975 --> 00:01:51,635 When my Friday paydays began to slowly fade away, 33 00:01:53,921 --> 00:01:56,391 You see the newspaper business had a best before date, 34 00:01:56,444 --> 00:01:57,494 And now my ass is on 35 00:01:57,545 --> 00:01:59,295 the street like expired mayonnaise, 36 00:01:59,348 --> 00:02:02,118 Which put a damper on my wedding plans, 37 00:02:02,171 --> 00:02:05,921 oh and by the way, yes I am gay. 38 00:02:05,976 --> 00:02:09,066 "When has Dede Cheng ever paid for brunch?" 39 00:02:09,120 --> 00:02:10,340 "Never!" 40 00:02:13,005 --> 00:02:14,456 She changed the locks on our doors two 41 00:02:14,486 --> 00:02:15,786 weeks before our big day, 42 00:02:15,838 --> 00:02:17,308 "What part of no do you not..."... 43 00:02:17,370 --> 00:02:20,484 I begged her to reconsider but I guess it was too late, 44 00:02:20,514 --> 00:02:23,254 Contributing my broke ass to the unemployment rate, 45 00:02:23,398 --> 00:02:25,838 I guess it's not an attractive trait she wished in a soulmate, 46 00:02:27,503 --> 00:02:29,693 So eight years from our loving first date, 47 00:02:29,746 --> 00:02:31,436 She insinuate, incriminate, 48 00:02:31,488 --> 00:02:33,268 disseminate with full hate and eviction 49 00:02:33,320 --> 00:02:35,280 notice to terminate our relationship 50 00:02:35,333 --> 00:02:39,013 like that, devastate, exterminate, pixelate you bitch! 51 00:02:50,051 --> 00:02:51,321 Moving on without me, 52 00:02:51,373 --> 00:02:53,593 The world is moving on without me... 53 00:03:10,857 --> 00:03:13,407 The camera is my lens with which I saw the world, 54 00:03:13,460 --> 00:03:14,710 but now the ground beneath me 55 00:03:14,762 --> 00:03:18,292 spins as my lens swirled and twirled, 56 00:03:18,947 --> 00:03:20,829 Searching for a subject, the reason to 57 00:03:20,859 --> 00:03:22,999 frame a shot, the present tense a mystery 58 00:03:23,052 --> 00:03:24,662 as I lose my train of thought, 59 00:03:24,714 --> 00:03:27,077 Watching time accelerate, I contemplate what it's 60 00:03:27,107 --> 00:03:28,587 like in Heaven's Gate, mood swings I 61 00:03:28,639 --> 00:03:30,749 cannot regulate, a pain I can't eradicate, 62 00:03:30,802 --> 00:03:32,552 but these pills I need to medicate, 63 00:03:32,604 --> 00:03:34,534 eventually I'll de-toxicate, but first I 64 00:03:34,587 --> 00:03:36,607 need to concentrate to get my shit in a 65 00:03:36,659 --> 00:03:41,169 fucking better state! I'm fucking genius! 66 00:03:41,756 --> 00:03:45,436 Dede Cheng one, healthcare industry zero. 67 00:04:10,532 --> 00:04:13,102 As a high functioning addict for many years, 68 00:04:13,155 --> 00:04:15,085 I wanted a fresh start. 69 00:04:15,137 --> 00:04:17,557 I needed to get the fuck out of LA. 70 00:04:18,381 --> 00:04:20,691 So I swallowed my pride, I asked my mom if I could borrow 71 00:04:20,744 --> 00:04:23,004 some money to travel... with the promise 72 00:04:23,057 --> 00:04:25,737 that I would pay her back. But instead, 73 00:04:25,791 --> 00:04:29,311 she quits her job, moves to LA on some 74 00:04:29,365 --> 00:04:32,595 kind of rescue mission. 75 00:05:01,936 --> 00:05:04,486 I wasn't proud of what I chose to do as a 76 00:05:04,539 --> 00:05:10,189 young woman. But seeing you... my own daughter... 77 00:05:10,246 --> 00:05:14,966 Making the same sorts of bad decisions. 78 00:05:42,206 --> 00:05:43,756 I was born in Hong Kong. 79 00:05:43,808 --> 00:05:48,958 Mom and dad were investment bankers. 80 00:05:49,015 --> 00:05:51,478 When they divorced, they put me into 81 00:05:51,508 --> 00:05:53,588 a boarding school in Connecticut while 82 00:05:53,641 --> 00:05:55,481 agreeing to share custody over the holidays. 83 00:06:02,392 --> 00:06:06,732 Dad often canceled our plans until he stopped calling. 84 00:06:12,684 --> 00:06:15,254 Oh one time, I lied to my mom that I was 85 00:06:15,308 --> 00:06:16,877 going to be with my dad for a few weeks 86 00:06:16,929 --> 00:06:19,490 during summer and ended up getting high 87 00:06:19,543 --> 00:06:21,713 on every Schedule One Narcotic I could 88 00:06:21,766 --> 00:06:23,766 get my hands on while backpacking across Europe... 89 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:30,380 Before overdosing on horse tranquilizers in Amsterdam. 90 00:06:31,788 --> 00:06:33,108 Not recommended. 91 00:06:37,576 --> 00:06:40,246 First thing tomorrow I'm going to the methadone clinic. 92 00:06:40,299 --> 00:06:42,229 What is this huh? 93 00:06:42,281 --> 00:06:44,691 - What the? - Why do you have two cell phones? 94 00:06:44,745 --> 00:06:46,056 Seriously mom, what the fuck are you doing 95 00:06:46,086 --> 00:06:47,116 going through my stuff? 96 00:06:47,168 --> 00:06:52,638 You really think I don't know how all this works? Don't lie to me. 97 00:06:52,694 --> 00:06:54,304 Ok well I'm not selling drugs 98 00:06:54,357 --> 00:06:56,587 or turning tricks if that's what you're imagining. 99 00:06:56,639 --> 00:06:59,379 Then why do you have two fucking cell phones? 100 00:07:03,949 --> 00:07:06,109 Whatever. Stop trying to break me down. 101 00:07:12,519 --> 00:07:14,519 Nobody asked you to come here so why 102 00:07:14,572 --> 00:07:17,462 don't you just leave me alone. 103 00:08:02,101 --> 00:08:07,237 Hey, Laura. Come back. Hey. Get back. 104 00:08:07,268 --> 00:08:11,248 Come here. Hey come back. Where are you going? 105 00:08:11,413 --> 00:08:14,753 You know what mom this is the first time I've done fine without you. 106 00:08:14,957 --> 00:08:18,577 Hey hey hey! Sorry. Sorry. 107 00:08:19,503 --> 00:08:21,503 Sorry. Let's go, come on. 108 00:08:26,071 --> 00:08:28,981 My name is Laura Yip. My dad's name is Peter, 109 00:08:29,035 --> 00:08:30,895 my mom's name is Margaret. 110 00:08:32,099 --> 00:08:35,279 My dad said she died of a heart failure when I was just a baby, 111 00:08:39,548 --> 00:08:44,968 I look like my mom, her photos are really pretty. 112 00:08:46,897 --> 00:08:48,897 I don't want to do this. 113 00:08:49,300 --> 00:08:52,280 Well you were here on time so we have to now. 114 00:08:52,644 --> 00:08:53,644 Okay. 115 00:08:56,790 --> 00:09:00,570 I like to rhyme just like my friend Dede with the blue hair. 116 00:09:02,056 --> 00:09:05,636 She and her mom Anna moved down the street to us. 117 00:09:06,362 --> 00:09:08,962 Dede's pretty just like her mom. 118 00:09:17,395 --> 00:09:21,405 Oh Laura go wash up we have a big day ahead. Okay? 119 00:09:21,461 --> 00:09:24,231 I saw this movie where the camera goes in the shower. 120 00:09:24,284 --> 00:09:26,084 It's supposed to be scary. 121 00:09:26,206 --> 00:09:28,876 Okay, play your camera later, okay? 122 00:09:28,930 --> 00:09:31,160 Now go wash up. Give me the camera. 123 00:09:31,213 --> 00:09:32,503 - No! - Come on. 124 00:09:32,554 --> 00:09:34,504 - Give it back! - Listen. Go wash up. 125 00:09:34,557 --> 00:09:36,557 No, give it back! 126 00:09:38,201 --> 00:09:40,201 Give it back! 127 00:09:54,862 --> 00:09:58,472 I left school really early, because the kids would often tease me. 128 00:09:58,527 --> 00:10:02,497 Keeping up with me was hard, so fitting in was hardly easy. 129 00:10:02,552 --> 00:10:07,018 But the teacher said I was disruptive. If Margaret was alive, 130 00:10:07,048 --> 00:10:09,088 She would defend me like a mama bear, 131 00:10:09,140 --> 00:10:14,520 allowing me to choose thrive. Roar. 132 00:10:21,856 --> 00:10:24,136 It's okay, it's okay, it's okay. 133 00:10:35,453 --> 00:10:37,093 Hurry up okay? 134 00:10:56,139 --> 00:10:57,139 Hi babap. 135 00:10:59,884 --> 00:11:03,144 Hey listen I'm sorry about what happened earlier. 136 00:11:04,850 --> 00:11:05,850 Yeah. 137 00:11:08,054 --> 00:11:10,414 Can you pass me the Chan's invoice? 138 00:11:12,399 --> 00:11:13,989 My dad is the best, 139 00:11:14,041 --> 00:11:16,971 he's the best, he's the best. 140 00:11:17,025 --> 00:11:20,715 Spent a lot of time at home, just me and my dad, 141 00:11:20,770 --> 00:11:24,830 he taught me all about accounting, more than any college grad, 142 00:11:24,995 --> 00:11:29,245 So I can help him with his clients, a lot of them are tax cheats, 143 00:11:29,300 --> 00:11:34,980 but my dad still finds a way to sneak in the legitimate receipts. 144 00:11:35,508 --> 00:11:39,618 Analyze and prioritize, organize and classify, 145 00:11:39,673 --> 00:11:42,703 the order of accounting, shelters me from any strife. 146 00:11:42,757 --> 00:11:46,987 So I can focus on drawing cartoons and shooting videos, 147 00:11:47,043 --> 00:11:49,143 the library of my life. 148 00:13:38,422 --> 00:13:40,862 I never taught her. 149 00:13:42,707 --> 00:13:46,557 Never ever would I place her in a special school or 150 00:13:46,612 --> 00:13:49,892 some group facility. 151 00:16:17,481 --> 00:16:20,421 I felt like a kid all the time. 152 00:16:21,646 --> 00:16:23,886 It's been a long time since I felt like that. 153 00:16:29,876 --> 00:16:32,566 I felt at ease with them right away, 154 00:16:32,620 --> 00:16:36,300 like an old friend who I could talk 155 00:16:36,355 --> 00:16:37,805 to you about anything. 156 00:18:55,078 --> 00:18:57,448 I never had dreams. 157 00:18:57,501 --> 00:18:59,221 So I have no regrets. 158 00:19:01,186 --> 00:19:03,376 Hey, you say thank you auntie Anna. 159 00:19:03,428 --> 00:19:04,838 Thank you auntie Anna. 160 00:19:04,890 --> 00:19:07,210 You're welcome. Dinner will be ready soon, okay? 161 00:19:08,895 --> 00:19:11,505 Lucky girl. Now you have two cameras. 162 00:19:11,559 --> 00:19:12,559 Hmm yeah. 163 00:19:20,209 --> 00:19:22,122 I've got my meeting and then I'm seeing my sponsor. 164 00:19:22,152 --> 00:19:23,812 Friggin' relax. 165 00:19:26,057 --> 00:19:27,727 Today's my birthday. 166 00:19:27,779 --> 00:19:29,699 - Happy birthday. - When's your birthday? 167 00:19:30,703 --> 00:19:33,513 Uh, December. 168 00:19:33,566 --> 00:19:37,616 Forever in December... 169 00:19:37,671 --> 00:19:41,481 My dad got me a rhyming dictionary birthday in May. 170 00:19:41,536 --> 00:19:43,126 I like wordplay. 171 00:19:43,178 --> 00:19:45,178 - Okay? - Yay. 172 00:19:45,741 --> 00:19:48,531 Where you going? We should be friends. 173 00:19:48,585 --> 00:19:52,555 Maybe later babe. I got adult stuff to do. 174 00:19:52,610 --> 00:19:54,450 I'm an adult. 175 00:19:55,414 --> 00:19:57,164 - Hey Laura. - Bye. 176 00:19:57,216 --> 00:19:59,216 Time to eat. 177 00:20:00,179 --> 00:20:02,339 We're going to be friends. 178 00:20:10,152 --> 00:20:13,512 Hey Laura. Okay, how about just have an orange then? 179 00:20:28,114 --> 00:20:34,274 Sit here, you can watch TV, huh? Take the control... 180 00:20:56,850 --> 00:21:01,290 - So. Nothing to watch? - It's okay. 181 00:21:02,377 --> 00:21:06,547 You gotta eat something. You want to come, sit with us? 182 00:21:06,603 --> 00:21:08,103 Fine. 183 00:21:11,228 --> 00:21:13,248 Tell you what. This time you're going to sit 184 00:21:13,301 --> 00:21:16,311 a little closer to daddy okay? Come on. 185 00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:23,710 Okay, how about I have this, 186 00:21:23,764 --> 00:21:25,394 and you eat that. You eat that too. 187 00:21:25,446 --> 00:21:26,296 No. 188 00:21:26,347 --> 00:21:27,767 Hey you got to eat something. 189 00:22:49,291 --> 00:22:52,081 - Hello. - Not now, please. 190 00:22:52,135 --> 00:22:53,905 My dad says you have a Panasonic. 191 00:22:53,957 --> 00:22:56,947 I want to see your lens kit. 192 00:22:57,001 --> 00:23:00,461 Hey hey! Those are important. Don't do that. 193 00:23:01,226 --> 00:23:04,116 I do a lot of filming. My hands are steady like a Steadicam. 194 00:23:04,170 --> 00:23:06,710 I log my footage every day 195 00:23:06,763 --> 00:23:09,143 and have it organized and metatagged. Now with 196 00:23:09,196 --> 00:23:11,826 the GoPro I'll double my footage. 197 00:23:12,820 --> 00:23:15,470 Don't touch this! God, it's not like I have 198 00:23:15,524 --> 00:23:17,364 a need for an intern. 199 00:23:18,728 --> 00:23:20,678 I can be your intern. 200 00:23:20,730 --> 00:23:22,960 Now I'm your friend and your intern. I want to 201 00:23:23,013 --> 00:23:27,703 help you. I'll listen to everything you say. 202 00:23:27,759 --> 00:23:29,419 Where you going? 203 00:23:34,568 --> 00:23:36,978 You going to a production meeting? I can take notes. 204 00:23:37,031 --> 00:23:39,051 - My handwriting is very clear... - Laura! 205 00:23:43,819 --> 00:23:44,939 No. 206 00:23:45,341 --> 00:23:46,341 No! 207 00:23:47,784 --> 00:23:48,784 No. 208 00:23:51,749 --> 00:23:54,159 Hey Mister Yip? It's okay, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You know 209 00:23:54,212 --> 00:23:56,572 I should have let you know in advance. 210 00:23:57,556 --> 00:24:00,346 You know, we were meeting about her maybe being my intern 211 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:01,910 for some project... 212 00:24:01,962 --> 00:24:03,492 I'm your intern! 213 00:24:03,544 --> 00:24:05,934 Yeah, I mean I could really use the extra help. 214 00:24:05,987 --> 00:24:08,627 She has plenty to do already. It's tax season. Come on, let's go. 215 00:24:11,754 --> 00:24:14,434 I'm her friend, and her intern. 216 00:24:31,158 --> 00:24:32,698 She's here. 217 00:24:34,523 --> 00:24:36,523 Dede with the blue hair. 218 00:24:37,727 --> 00:24:40,447 Alright, let's do this. 219 00:24:43,814 --> 00:24:45,764 Back by seven okay? 220 00:24:45,817 --> 00:24:48,197 - Yes baba. - See you Mister Yip. 221 00:24:51,564 --> 00:24:53,224 Call me if you're late. 222 00:24:53,727 --> 00:24:54,727 Okay. 223 00:25:06,783 --> 00:25:09,873 I spent my life telling other people's stories through my lens. 224 00:25:09,927 --> 00:25:13,947 Living an unexamined life I can no longer pretend... 225 00:25:14,893 --> 00:25:16,503 Laura you're okay? 226 00:25:16,555 --> 00:25:18,555 I can't find focus. 227 00:25:19,299 --> 00:25:22,369 Keep rolling. Why don't you stand in for me. 228 00:25:22,423 --> 00:25:24,395 - Okay. - You stand in and I'll focus and then you can 229 00:25:24,425 --> 00:25:26,425 come back in again. 230 00:25:32,996 --> 00:25:39,806 My name is Laura Yip, drip drip, taking a trip trying to make a movie clip, 231 00:25:39,864 --> 00:25:43,514 An abandoned ship, last poker chip, 232 00:25:43,569 --> 00:25:45,099 break a hip, let it rip... 233 00:25:45,151 --> 00:25:46,151 Just stop. 234 00:25:47,033 --> 00:25:48,363 I need to get a grip. 235 00:25:48,415 --> 00:25:52,255 Shut the fuck up Laura. Will you let me focus, can you? 236 00:25:53,401 --> 00:25:56,231 You made a pun, or a double entendre. 237 00:25:56,285 --> 00:25:58,355 It's when you say the same word... 238 00:25:58,408 --> 00:26:01,298 Okay Laura I know, I know what it is. 239 00:26:01,351 --> 00:26:02,771 Can I try? 240 00:26:03,674 --> 00:26:05,827 Yeah that should do it. I'm going to take from the top. 241 00:26:05,857 --> 00:26:06,857 Okay. 242 00:26:07,479 --> 00:26:09,059 - Ready? - Yeah. 243 00:26:10,042 --> 00:26:12,692 I spent my life telling other people stories through my lens, 244 00:26:12,745 --> 00:26:16,125 living an unexamined life I can no longer pretend... 245 00:26:21,877 --> 00:26:22,467 Hey. 246 00:26:22,518 --> 00:26:24,648 Oh your phone is ringing and 247 00:26:24,700 --> 00:26:26,550 I didn't know the password. 248 00:26:26,603 --> 00:26:28,413 Thanks for lunch. 249 00:26:28,465 --> 00:26:30,065 You're welcome. 250 00:26:35,734 --> 00:26:36,854 You know... 251 00:26:37,416 --> 00:26:39,086 You wanted vegetarian tacos right? 252 00:26:39,139 --> 00:26:40,359 Yeah. 253 00:26:53,356 --> 00:26:56,316 Oh my God look at the sky. 254 00:27:14,483 --> 00:27:15,483 Thanks. 255 00:29:08,025 --> 00:29:09,777 Dede and I were at the dollar store. I picked 256 00:29:09,807 --> 00:29:11,767 these out and she paid. They're a gift from 257 00:29:11,819 --> 00:29:13,159 us to you. 258 00:29:13,211 --> 00:29:16,151 Thank you Laura. This is... 259 00:29:52,260 --> 00:29:55,030 Can I tell you something? 260 00:29:55,084 --> 00:29:56,094 Yeah? 261 00:29:56,145 --> 00:29:59,795 You promise you won't tell anyone? Not even your dad. 262 00:29:59,850 --> 00:30:04,430 Yeah. I'm your friend. Friends keep their promises. 263 00:30:08,681 --> 00:30:11,431 I think I want to be a mom. 264 00:30:11,484 --> 00:30:13,594 I never really thought about it before, 265 00:30:13,647 --> 00:30:17,687 but being here and sorting my head out... 266 00:30:19,634 --> 00:30:22,514 I think I want to have a kid someday. 267 00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:27,380 My dead mom Margaret was really pretty. 268 00:30:28,005 --> 00:30:31,249 I look like her. She was twenty five when I 269 00:30:31,279 --> 00:30:35,069 shot out of her vagina. I don't want a 270 00:30:35,124 --> 00:30:37,774 baby shooting out of my vagina. 271 00:30:38,318 --> 00:30:40,268 Oh yeah? You've never really wanted to have a 272 00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:41,940 boyfriend, or...? 273 00:30:42,603 --> 00:30:44,293 You want a boyfriend? 274 00:30:44,345 --> 00:30:46,045 No I'm gay. 275 00:30:46,928 --> 00:30:51,248 Like, I like women. I had girlfriends, not boyfriends. 276 00:30:54,157 --> 00:30:57,707 When you have your baby can I hold it? 277 00:30:57,762 --> 00:30:59,762 Yes, absolutely. 278 00:31:08,495 --> 00:31:12,405 Those few months, life was really really good. 279 00:31:12,460 --> 00:31:14,770 Learning to let go a little and 280 00:31:14,823 --> 00:31:20,343 spend time with Anna was almost perfect. 281 00:31:31,504 --> 00:31:33,656 I wasn't sure and had to be convinced 282 00:31:33,686 --> 00:31:36,661 but Anna felt very strongly we could go 283 00:31:36,691 --> 00:31:40,531 away and spend a weekend together. 284 00:31:44,761 --> 00:31:49,991 - Hello Laura, hello Dede. - We are in Santa Barbara... 285 00:31:50,047 --> 00:31:54,107 Peter was attached to his cell phone camera the entire time. 286 00:31:59,039 --> 00:32:01,639 I think Laura gave him the bug. 287 00:32:03,044 --> 00:32:04,626 I promised Laura I would take a lot of 288 00:32:04,656 --> 00:32:07,035 videos and pictures so that when we come 289 00:32:07,088 --> 00:32:08,479 back we can watch it together. 290 00:32:08,531 --> 00:32:11,481 - Hey. - Hello. 291 00:32:11,534 --> 00:32:14,304 We are in Griffith Park, 292 00:32:14,358 --> 00:32:16,208 and Laura's taking photos. 293 00:32:16,260 --> 00:32:20,400 Yeah, I never been here before. 294 00:32:24,591 --> 00:32:26,621 I have to pee. 295 00:32:26,673 --> 00:32:27,673 Really? 296 00:32:29,477 --> 00:32:31,477 You know it's just... 297 00:32:35,384 --> 00:32:37,384 I just lit my cigarette but come on. 298 00:32:44,375 --> 00:32:47,635 - I wouldn't sit on the toilet seat if I was you. - Okay. 299 00:33:36,941 --> 00:33:37,981 Laura? 300 00:33:41,707 --> 00:33:42,767 Laura. 301 00:33:47,034 --> 00:33:48,034 Laura. 302 00:33:51,860 --> 00:33:52,980 Laura? 303 00:33:54,423 --> 00:33:55,803 Laura! 304 00:33:58,869 --> 00:34:05,409 I called mom to tell her that Laura went missing. 305 00:34:09,922 --> 00:34:13,462 There was a long silence on the other line. 306 00:34:15,129 --> 00:34:17,149 They were back in LA within hours. 307 00:34:17,912 --> 00:34:21,912 When we called all the park rangers and began scouring the area... 308 00:34:23,900 --> 00:34:28,580 Later that evening, the park ranger tells us the news... 309 00:34:50,273 --> 00:34:53,573 It took us about an hour to convince her to come out. 310 00:35:31,825 --> 00:35:36,305 I never felt so guilty or awful in my whole life. 311 00:35:41,297 --> 00:35:42,207 I should have given you more 312 00:35:42,258 --> 00:35:45,668 specific instructions on how to take care of Laura. 313 00:35:45,722 --> 00:35:48,192 Certain triggers cause her to 314 00:35:48,245 --> 00:35:49,975 become disoriented. 315 00:35:50,748 --> 00:35:53,118 Any sudden extreme changes, her senses 316 00:35:53,172 --> 00:35:56,692 become overloaded, like a computer crash. 317 00:36:03,765 --> 00:36:05,365 Let's just go home and keep it off okay? 318 00:36:05,407 --> 00:36:08,527 Never should I have trusted you so soon, you're not ready. 319 00:36:09,111 --> 00:36:10,523 What? You're going to buy more drugs? 320 00:36:10,553 --> 00:36:11,823 Mom I am trying and you 321 00:36:11,875 --> 00:36:13,605 never give me a second chance. 322 00:36:13,657 --> 00:36:15,910 I've given you so many chances already, you never appreciate 323 00:36:15,940 --> 00:36:17,130 what I've sacrificed. 324 00:36:17,182 --> 00:36:20,452 For the last time, I wasn't drunk or high or turning tricks. 325 00:36:20,506 --> 00:36:22,626 So even when you're sober you still so irresponsible! 326 00:36:28,536 --> 00:36:29,956 Mom... 327 00:36:30,779 --> 00:36:32,881 Until you get clean I cannot 328 00:36:32,911 --> 00:36:36,381 help you anymore. Go. 329 00:36:36,436 --> 00:36:39,626 You're even a worse liar than your father. 330 00:36:40,931 --> 00:36:43,301 Well at least dad told me everything mom. 331 00:36:43,354 --> 00:36:45,304 Does Peter know? Did you tell him? 332 00:36:45,357 --> 00:36:46,767 Why don't we all go to sleep... 333 00:36:46,819 --> 00:36:50,349 Dad, Dad was a regular client of my mom's at 334 00:36:50,403 --> 00:36:51,913 the karaoke club that she worked at 335 00:36:51,965 --> 00:36:54,999 as a dancer and hostess, right? 336 00:36:55,029 --> 00:36:57,599 That's how they had me. I was a mistake, right? 337 00:36:57,652 --> 00:36:59,991 I am not supposed to be here and 338 00:37:00,044 --> 00:37:01,734 then then they got married because my 339 00:37:01,786 --> 00:37:03,596 mom was too ashamed to tell her own 340 00:37:03,649 --> 00:37:05,880 parents she was a fucking whore! 341 00:37:05,933 --> 00:37:07,764 - Shut up! - And then what? Dad set you up with the 342 00:37:07,794 --> 00:37:09,725 banking job, right? Right? To keep up 343 00:37:09,777 --> 00:37:11,826 appearances like the perfect rich girl, 344 00:37:11,879 --> 00:37:14,720 marry the rich man have a successful career, 345 00:37:14,774 --> 00:37:15,904 the end. 346 00:37:15,955 --> 00:37:17,355 Anna... 347 00:37:26,488 --> 00:37:28,358 Why don't you stay with us tonight? 348 00:37:28,411 --> 00:37:30,674 You can stay on my bed. I have extra blankets 349 00:37:30,704 --> 00:37:33,414 and sheets. I can help you. We're friends. 350 00:37:33,467 --> 00:37:34,897 We're friends. 351 00:37:35,720 --> 00:37:36,720 Dede. 352 00:37:37,702 --> 00:37:39,462 Dede! 353 00:39:08,636 --> 00:39:09,636 Dad! 354 00:39:25,617 --> 00:39:27,827 Anna said she had to go back to Hong Kong 355 00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:30,470 because she had some work to do. 356 00:39:30,523 --> 00:39:34,293 I asked her about Dede. Anna said it'd be okay, 357 00:39:34,348 --> 00:39:38,388 that Dede would come home soon. 358 00:40:23,189 --> 00:40:25,409 You're waiting for Anna. 359 00:40:28,216 --> 00:40:31,126 You're thinking about her all the time. 360 00:40:31,179 --> 00:40:33,599 You're crazy for her as they say. 361 00:40:36,306 --> 00:40:38,256 We don't need anyone else. 362 00:40:38,308 --> 00:40:41,928 We have each other, that's most important. 363 00:40:44,716 --> 00:40:48,176 We're lucky, you and me. 364 00:40:49,462 --> 00:40:51,462 Just you and I. 365 00:40:53,267 --> 00:40:55,127 You love Anna. 366 00:40:56,751 --> 00:40:59,061 But you don't know whether she loves you back, 367 00:40:59,114 --> 00:41:03,274 or whether or not you can live happily ever after without her. 368 00:41:04,501 --> 00:41:06,681 What do you know about love? 369 00:41:09,007 --> 00:41:13,977 Anna would put her head on your shoulder like I do. 370 00:41:14,033 --> 00:41:16,103 I know you love me, 371 00:41:16,156 --> 00:41:19,856 therefore I know you love her. 372 00:41:26,048 --> 00:41:29,338 I went back to my routine in Hong Kong. 373 00:41:29,392 --> 00:41:32,252 It felt like I never left. 374 00:41:33,077 --> 00:41:38,507 The noise and the energy was like medicine. 375 00:41:38,564 --> 00:41:42,124 It helped shut out everything. 376 00:41:44,591 --> 00:41:48,161 I did get the fuck out of LA after all. 377 00:41:48,216 --> 00:41:53,366 I swallowed my pride and texted my ex-girlfriend Chloe. 378 00:41:53,422 --> 00:41:57,672 Turns out, she was working at an ad agency up in San Francisco. 379 00:41:57,728 --> 00:41:59,388 She couldn't promise anything but said 380 00:41:59,440 --> 00:42:03,290 she'd try her best to send some freelance work my way. 381 00:42:04,176 --> 00:42:05,536 Laura. 382 00:42:08,581 --> 00:42:09,841 Time for cards. 383 00:42:13,908 --> 00:42:15,008 Laura. 384 00:42:29,928 --> 00:42:32,298 So our offices in Palo Alto, 385 00:42:32,351 --> 00:42:34,520 we've been growing by about two hundred percent... 386 00:42:34,573 --> 00:42:36,076 Hang on. Sorry man, can you just turn your 387 00:42:36,106 --> 00:42:37,945 collar down it's like turned up on both sides, 388 00:42:37,997 --> 00:42:40,437 and you were great man, love the eye contact 389 00:42:40,490 --> 00:42:42,180 like, makes the audience feel engaged... 390 00:42:42,232 --> 00:42:43,913 Can I just talk to you for a second? 391 00:42:43,965 --> 00:42:46,258 Hey guys can you just take a quick moment for a second? 392 00:42:46,288 --> 00:42:48,148 - Oh yeah sure. - Thanks. 393 00:42:49,833 --> 00:42:51,683 So, the client wants to 394 00:42:51,735 --> 00:42:54,585 just use the footage that we currently have. 395 00:42:54,639 --> 00:42:56,989 Okay they want to call it a day? Sweet. 396 00:42:57,042 --> 00:42:58,692 No, they actually just wanted to use 397 00:42:58,744 --> 00:43:00,984 just that, and nothing else. 398 00:43:01,908 --> 00:43:06,098 What do you mean? I thought you said it was for six months? 399 00:43:06,153 --> 00:43:09,583 I know. But the problem is that... 400 00:43:09,637 --> 00:43:11,847 their budget is, you know, 401 00:43:11,900 --> 00:43:13,830 they're maxing out so they want to be... 402 00:43:13,883 --> 00:43:15,795 Okay well that's okay you can tell them I can drop my rate. 403 00:43:15,825 --> 00:43:18,075 I did, I told them but they won't... 404 00:43:18,128 --> 00:43:19,578 I need this gig, Chloe, I need... 405 00:43:19,630 --> 00:43:23,059 I know, I'm doing all I can to help you okay? I love you, come on. 406 00:43:23,113 --> 00:43:24,646 If you love me then why did you leave me 407 00:43:24,676 --> 00:43:27,896 in the first place Chloe? I needed this 408 00:43:27,950 --> 00:43:32,300 gig, and you fucking screwed me. 409 00:43:54,514 --> 00:43:57,154 I tried to check up on you. 410 00:43:59,039 --> 00:44:02,099 You simply disappeared on me. 411 00:44:04,005 --> 00:44:06,845 There's not much more I could do. 412 00:44:08,411 --> 00:44:10,411 So, you finally gave up on me. 413 00:44:32,441 --> 00:44:36,021 Fuck this, I will not be made to feel guilty. 414 00:45:10,268 --> 00:45:12,728 - You took this one too? - Yeah but I didn't go in the water. 415 00:45:13,212 --> 00:45:15,982 She talked about photography, 416 00:45:16,036 --> 00:45:18,586 making you see the world differently, 417 00:45:18,639 --> 00:45:20,189 exploring different places, 418 00:45:20,241 --> 00:45:22,471 and you telling her 419 00:45:22,524 --> 00:45:25,134 the world is how you frame it. 420 00:45:25,187 --> 00:45:27,187 What's in it, what isn't. 421 00:45:29,673 --> 00:45:33,183 She was always drawing, 422 00:45:33,237 --> 00:45:36,757 but I never heard her articulate things quite like that before. 423 00:45:38,904 --> 00:45:41,014 My favorite picture. 424 00:45:41,067 --> 00:45:44,947 I've never seen her smile like that before. 425 00:45:52,301 --> 00:45:53,941 What are you doing? 426 00:45:54,364 --> 00:45:55,624 Making a movie. 427 00:45:56,466 --> 00:45:58,466 Happy birthday. 428 00:46:05,838 --> 00:46:09,158 What are you waiting for? Open it. 429 00:46:12,386 --> 00:46:14,386 Dede with the blue hair. 430 00:46:14,829 --> 00:46:16,829 Dede. Dede with the blue hair. 431 00:46:22,058 --> 00:46:25,208 This is Laura Yip, reporting into my brand new smartphone. 432 00:46:25,262 --> 00:46:29,052 It is oh eight hundred hours, and we are about to embark on 433 00:46:29,107 --> 00:46:31,747 a mission to visit Dede. 434 00:46:32,651 --> 00:46:35,621 Dad, say hi to the camera. 435 00:46:35,675 --> 00:46:36,675 Hi. 436 00:46:37,758 --> 00:46:39,168 - Dad. - Yo. 437 00:46:39,220 --> 00:46:41,470 Say your name, time, and where we're going. 438 00:46:41,522 --> 00:46:45,071 Oh hi this is Peter Yip with my daughter 439 00:46:45,126 --> 00:46:48,467 Laura Yip. It is Saturday morning. 440 00:46:48,521 --> 00:46:51,231 Dede invited us to San Francisco for a 441 00:46:51,285 --> 00:46:55,205 few days, so All Gold Mountain! 442 00:46:55,260 --> 00:46:59,000 Here we come. Bye. Let's go. 443 00:47:00,266 --> 00:47:01,366 Bye. 444 00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:13,930 - You have some flowers in your hair? - No. 445 00:47:13,983 --> 00:47:16,623 Let's go get the flowers. 446 00:47:28,041 --> 00:47:30,391 We finally made it to the Bay Area. 447 00:47:30,444 --> 00:47:33,494 In fact, we are on the beautiful Bay Bridge. 448 00:47:33,548 --> 00:47:37,538 - But I personally like the Golden Gate better. - Why? 449 00:47:37,593 --> 00:47:40,463 Chinese people love gold. We name every, 450 00:47:40,516 --> 00:47:43,366 everything after gold, especially the restaurants: 451 00:47:43,420 --> 00:47:45,863 Golden Palace, Golden Dragon, 452 00:47:45,893 --> 00:47:48,663 even the Golden Buddha! Now you know why 453 00:47:48,717 --> 00:47:51,337 so many Chinese lives in California? 454 00:47:51,390 --> 00:47:53,380 Because it is the Golden State. 455 00:47:53,432 --> 00:47:58,262 - We're going to Chinatown, get some egg tarts. - We're going to Chinatown to get some egg tarts. 456 00:47:58,319 --> 00:48:00,319 Are you ready? Ah. 457 00:48:01,442 --> 00:48:03,662 Mmm. So good. Try some. 458 00:48:08,071 --> 00:48:11,421 What did I tell you? Is it good? 459 00:48:11,475 --> 00:48:13,735 Is it good, no? 460 00:48:16,722 --> 00:48:19,732 This is Laura Yip. We've landed in San Francisco, 461 00:48:19,785 --> 00:48:26,485 and we're now at the Golden Gate Bridge with my dad. 462 00:48:40,111 --> 00:48:42,731 Going on that road trip for Laura... 463 00:48:43,956 --> 00:48:45,256 was really special. 464 00:49:10,749 --> 00:49:15,129 - I think I'm gonna text her. - What did she say? 465 00:49:15,185 --> 00:49:18,475 I don't know, she's... we're probably a little early. 466 00:49:39,365 --> 00:49:41,355 Let's check in to the hotel and try again 467 00:49:41,407 --> 00:49:44,597 tomorrow okay? Come on. Let's go. 468 00:49:44,652 --> 00:49:45,822 Laura? 469 00:49:45,873 --> 00:49:48,413 Stop being so stubborn. 470 00:49:58,569 --> 00:50:00,689 You always get your way. 471 00:50:41,122 --> 00:50:46,192 This is Laura Yip again. It is oh two hundred hours. 472 00:50:46,249 --> 00:50:49,329 Dede has yet to arrive home. 473 00:50:51,035 --> 00:50:56,215 Dede was supposed to meet us at eighteen hundred hours yesterday. 474 00:50:58,103 --> 00:51:01,323 Dede is my only friend. 475 00:51:03,150 --> 00:51:06,170 If Dede's gone I'll have no friends. 476 00:51:13,643 --> 00:51:15,753 Let's check in to a hotel. 477 00:51:15,806 --> 00:51:18,106 It's okay, don't cry, 478 00:51:19,811 --> 00:51:21,371 don't cry. 479 00:52:13,918 --> 00:52:15,818 Dede with the blue hair. 480 00:52:16,321 --> 00:52:18,241 Dede. Dede's here. 481 00:52:40,471 --> 00:52:45,181 Laura, just stay here. I'll be right back. 482 00:52:45,237 --> 00:52:46,557 Okay. 483 00:53:30,254 --> 00:53:32,584 Thank you for the groceries. 484 00:53:32,637 --> 00:53:34,637 You're welcome. 485 00:53:43,550 --> 00:53:46,160 We have to be out of here by noon. 486 00:53:46,214 --> 00:53:48,154 House-sitting again? 487 00:53:50,579 --> 00:53:51,991 I said I'm sorry about last night... 488 00:53:52,021 --> 00:53:54,161 I don't need to hear any of this okay? 489 00:54:03,916 --> 00:54:07,156 Can I stay with you and Laura? 490 00:54:08,722 --> 00:54:12,702 Please. Please help me. 491 00:54:14,369 --> 00:54:18,999 I had no choice. For Laura's sake, 492 00:54:19,055 --> 00:54:20,615 I had to. 493 00:54:21,077 --> 00:54:22,427 Oh that's chicken? 494 00:54:22,479 --> 00:54:25,769 - Yeah actually this one's the mackerel. - Oh it's fish? 495 00:54:25,823 --> 00:54:28,833 - It's like a fatty fish. - It looks like chicken. 496 00:54:28,887 --> 00:54:31,407 Oh no I think I left my camera running. 497 00:54:34,794 --> 00:54:38,004 The rest of the weekend Laura seem more relaxed. 498 00:54:38,059 --> 00:54:41,799 I've never seen her like that in a long long time. 499 00:54:59,686 --> 00:55:02,456 This is a Dede photobomb. 500 00:55:02,509 --> 00:55:05,849 This is Dede and my dad. They're my favorite people. 501 00:55:16,467 --> 00:55:17,758 This is where people get married you know? 502 00:55:17,788 --> 00:55:21,298 - Yeah. - Where are we? What is the name of this place? 503 00:55:21,353 --> 00:55:23,543 - Cow Palace. - No... 504 00:55:23,596 --> 00:55:26,296 The Palace of Fine Arts. 505 00:55:27,300 --> 00:55:29,430 Hi this is Laura Yip. 506 00:55:29,483 --> 00:55:32,513 We're leaving San Francisco and we're going back 507 00:55:32,567 --> 00:55:35,037 to LA and guess who we're bringing with us? 508 00:55:35,090 --> 00:55:37,540 That's right. We have a special guest today. 509 00:55:37,593 --> 00:55:39,673 - Hi Dede. - Hey. 510 00:55:40,256 --> 00:55:44,726 As I'm about to bring everybody back to Los Angeles 511 00:55:44,782 --> 00:55:46,865 we're going to be passing by this most 512 00:55:46,895 --> 00:55:49,245 wonderful if not magical place in the 513 00:55:49,298 --> 00:55:51,858 entire west coast and inside the minds 514 00:55:51,911 --> 00:55:54,381 of every Chinese parents. 515 00:55:54,434 --> 00:55:56,384 Anybody know the answer? 516 00:55:56,437 --> 00:55:58,117 No. Do you Dede? 517 00:55:59,520 --> 00:56:04,676 God, it's so Asian. Stanford, so good. 518 00:56:04,707 --> 00:56:08,867 University campuses are like tourist attractions for our people. 519 00:56:09,593 --> 00:56:10,753 Dad is she right? 520 00:56:11,556 --> 00:56:13,166 She's right! She got the answer. 521 00:56:13,218 --> 00:56:15,458 Hey you want the prize or cash? 522 00:56:17,383 --> 00:56:19,333 According to the Chinese parents, 523 00:56:19,385 --> 00:56:21,195 always take the cash. 524 00:56:21,248 --> 00:56:24,508 Well I guess I'm Chinese then, so I will take that cash. 525 00:56:25,553 --> 00:56:28,293 She's taking the cash and we're taking her. Bye. 526 00:56:36,006 --> 00:56:40,151 In recovery, they talk about surrendering to a god, 527 00:56:40,181 --> 00:56:43,911 a higher power, or whatever woowoo thing 528 00:56:43,966 --> 00:56:46,555 you want to believe in. Not really sure what 529 00:56:46,608 --> 00:56:49,078 to believe in, but in any case, when I 530 00:56:49,132 --> 00:56:52,773 moved in with Laura and Peter, I started 531 00:56:52,827 --> 00:56:57,787 my day off with methadone, because you know, science. 532 00:57:04,402 --> 00:57:06,404 So I guess you deserve the truth, 533 00:57:06,434 --> 00:57:11,603 I used about two days ago, again a couple 534 00:57:11,660 --> 00:57:15,991 times this past week. I just fight with 535 00:57:16,046 --> 00:57:19,355 the girlfriend, you know, parties just justify it 536 00:57:19,409 --> 00:57:24,879 and I know, but I threw it out, I threw 537 00:57:24,936 --> 00:57:29,386 out what I bought, and I am still going and 538 00:57:29,442 --> 00:57:32,653 going for day number three. 539 00:57:33,218 --> 00:57:37,038 I've been coming here for five years now and, so just as nervous as the first time... 540 00:57:38,284 --> 00:57:41,504 but it's so nice to hear from all of you. 541 00:57:42,149 --> 00:57:46,009 I'm at thirty days, finally. Yeah. 542 00:57:47,175 --> 00:57:50,845 I don't wanna like, say I don't need to be here, 543 00:57:50,900 --> 00:57:54,510 I, but, you know I just kind of fucked up. 544 00:57:54,564 --> 00:57:57,434 I actually was sober enough for the first time in six months 545 00:57:57,488 --> 00:58:00,708 to get a job, so... 546 00:58:02,114 --> 00:58:04,164 Excuse me, hey, I'm Dede. 547 00:58:04,216 --> 00:58:07,296 I've been clean for seven days. 548 00:58:14,209 --> 00:58:18,579 Yeah, so yeah I guess I'm here and thanks 549 00:58:18,634 --> 00:58:22,734 for listening to me. Your turn... 550 00:58:24,882 --> 00:58:30,022 I've been clean exactly one month, as of today. 551 00:58:33,373 --> 00:58:36,653 I'd be lying if I said I feel great because I don't. 552 00:58:37,818 --> 00:58:40,498 I feel fucking awful. 553 00:58:42,544 --> 00:58:46,644 Anxious. You know, none of that zen bullshit. 554 00:58:57,964 --> 00:59:00,894 I've been through this a couple of times now. 555 00:59:00,947 --> 00:59:03,577 You know, recovery, rehab, whatever you 556 00:59:03,631 --> 00:59:05,710 fucking want to call it, okay? So I know 557 00:59:05,762 --> 00:59:08,083 how it goes. I know the whys and 558 00:59:08,136 --> 00:59:10,476 the how's and the what's and the wheres and so forth, 559 00:59:12,161 --> 00:59:13,541 but, um... 560 00:59:19,370 --> 00:59:27,370 but it was always like up in here, in the head. Not down here. 561 00:59:29,703 --> 00:59:31,413 Okay so we've gone over the pedals and 562 00:59:31,466 --> 00:59:33,976 the gear stick to put your foot on the brake and then... 563 00:59:34,029 --> 00:59:35,609 I don't really I want to do that... 564 00:59:35,971 --> 00:59:38,201 Feels different this time. 565 00:59:38,254 --> 00:59:41,894 Because I'm not doing it for me. I'm doing it for Laura. 566 00:59:43,040 --> 00:59:46,590 Yeah, she can be fucking annoying and incredibly 567 00:59:46,645 --> 00:59:48,116 frustrating to the point where you want 568 00:59:48,146 --> 00:59:51,196 to pull out her hair, follicle by follicle, 569 00:59:51,250 --> 00:59:56,060 but through it all she inspires me 570 00:59:56,116 --> 00:59:59,446 to be better. So when someone loves 571 00:59:59,501 --> 01:00:02,801 you more than the drugs do... 572 01:00:05,368 --> 01:00:08,588 I'm not just doing this for me anymore. 573 01:00:15,641 --> 01:00:19,581 Excuse me, is there a place where I can get soda? 574 01:00:20,807 --> 01:00:23,707 Um yeah down street and to the right. 575 01:00:24,011 --> 01:00:25,531 Thank you. 576 01:00:28,837 --> 01:00:29,877 Thanks. 577 01:00:33,483 --> 01:00:35,043 - Oh my gosh. - Scaredy cat. 578 01:00:36,126 --> 01:00:38,126 Hey you did it. 579 01:00:40,031 --> 01:00:40,741 Yeah. 580 01:00:40,792 --> 01:00:43,292 - How was it? - It was weird. 581 01:00:43,956 --> 01:00:48,046 - Well cheers to you. - I don't think ordered right. 582 01:00:48,101 --> 01:00:50,031 I don't care. I'm just proud of you. 583 01:00:50,084 --> 01:00:51,364 Change. 584 01:00:51,886 --> 01:00:54,536 Hi, I'm listening to start treatment and 585 01:00:54,590 --> 01:00:56,270 I was wondering how to go about starting. 586 01:00:57,213 --> 01:00:59,583 Okay, well, I have some paperwork here for you 587 01:00:59,636 --> 01:01:02,226 to fill out and then I will get you 588 01:01:02,279 --> 01:01:04,589 a manager to speak with so if you wanna take a seat. 589 01:01:04,642 --> 01:01:05,962 Okay, thank you. 590 01:01:36,542 --> 01:01:40,732 Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, 591 01:01:40,787 --> 01:01:46,117 happy birthday dear Dede with the blue hair, happy birthday to you. 592 01:01:46,174 --> 01:01:47,504 Surprise. 593 01:01:47,556 --> 01:01:49,456 So that's what you were up to. 594 01:01:49,508 --> 01:01:52,708 She went out and got the cake all by herself. 595 01:01:52,762 --> 01:01:55,992 Oh yeah? That's awesome. Ooh, congrats Laura. 596 01:01:56,046 --> 01:01:57,638 Did she tell you she was going to do this? 597 01:01:57,668 --> 01:01:59,478 No, she said she wanted to catch the bus 598 01:01:59,531 --> 01:02:00,501 all the way home today. 599 01:02:00,552 --> 01:02:05,192 For her to go out alone is extremely unsafe. She could really get hurt. 600 01:02:05,859 --> 01:02:07,170 Happy birthday Dede with the blue hair... 601 01:02:07,200 --> 01:02:09,860 Shh! Go to the kitchen. 602 01:02:12,207 --> 01:02:13,857 I'm sorry. I should've told you... 603 01:02:13,909 --> 01:02:15,659 This is all your fault. 604 01:02:15,711 --> 01:02:17,481 Look, when we go to the center... 605 01:02:17,533 --> 01:02:18,705 What have you done to my daughter? 606 01:02:18,735 --> 01:02:22,225 Can you just let me finish? When we go to the center... 607 01:02:22,279 --> 01:02:24,021 - You know I just I bought her a bus pass... - Bus pass? 608 01:02:24,051 --> 01:02:25,643 To explore the city and then she meets me back 609 01:02:25,673 --> 01:02:29,093 at the center. Usually. She's perfectly okay by herself. 610 01:02:29,148 --> 01:02:32,528 My phone has the internet, it knows 611 01:02:32,582 --> 01:02:35,202 everything, I text Dede my updates all 612 01:02:35,255 --> 01:02:39,185 the time, except for the cake that was our surprise. 613 01:02:39,240 --> 01:02:40,430 We got it worked out. 614 01:02:40,482 --> 01:02:41,954 I'm going to take all the buses and the 615 01:02:41,984 --> 01:02:44,544 trains. I like the trains. 616 01:02:49,313 --> 01:02:50,493 Ba! 617 01:02:51,676 --> 01:02:52,696 Ba! 618 01:02:56,943 --> 01:02:59,603 Dad. Give us the cake. 619 01:03:00,867 --> 01:03:01,867 Dad. 620 01:03:03,451 --> 01:03:05,551 Dad. Give us the cake! 621 01:03:06,394 --> 01:03:08,854 Dad! Give us the cake! 622 01:03:09,719 --> 01:03:12,889 Dad! Dad! Give us the cake! 623 01:03:12,943 --> 01:03:15,263 - Hey hey hey. - Dad it's not yours. 624 01:03:15,926 --> 01:03:19,036 No. Dad! It's not his cake. 625 01:03:19,090 --> 01:03:20,190 I know babe, I know. 626 01:03:36,272 --> 01:03:39,012 Happy birthday Dede with the blue hair. 627 01:03:40,557 --> 01:03:42,827 It's almost over anyway but thanks Laura. 628 01:03:42,880 --> 01:03:45,840 - Sorry you didn't get to eat cake. - It's okay. 629 01:03:52,152 --> 01:03:55,392 I read on the internet people in recovery need love. 630 01:03:55,936 --> 01:03:58,096 I love you Dede. 631 01:03:58,800 --> 01:04:01,190 If you need me I'll be there for you. 632 01:04:01,243 --> 01:04:03,603 Because I don't want you to be alone. 633 01:04:04,447 --> 01:04:06,627 I'm your friend. 634 01:04:08,252 --> 01:04:12,392 When you have your baby someday I'll help you take care of it. 635 01:05:54,425 --> 01:05:56,665 I had to do something. 636 01:06:25,223 --> 01:06:26,293 Laura! 637 01:06:26,345 --> 01:06:27,595 Hi Anna. 638 01:06:27,646 --> 01:06:29,686 Wow, you look great. 639 01:06:31,631 --> 01:06:33,671 Are you excited about coming to Hong Kong? 640 01:06:35,035 --> 01:06:36,375 I'm not going to Hong Kong. 641 01:06:40,923 --> 01:06:44,053 Laura is staying with her uncle in Pasadena. 642 01:06:44,107 --> 01:06:46,877 I don't have an uncle in Pasadena. 643 01:06:46,930 --> 01:06:50,080 Why don't you let auntie and I have a private moment, 644 01:06:50,134 --> 01:06:51,486 and why don't you go to your room? 645 01:06:51,516 --> 01:06:54,626 I told dad to take a lot of photos and videos of you in Hong Kong. 646 01:06:54,680 --> 01:06:56,730 I always wanted to go there. 647 01:06:56,783 --> 01:06:59,803 Dede and I will be holding down the fort as they say. 648 01:07:04,232 --> 01:07:05,624 Dede's been staying with us for the past three months 649 01:07:05,654 --> 01:07:07,984 and eleven days including today. 650 01:07:08,037 --> 01:07:10,767 - Laura? - Dede and I do everything together. 651 01:07:10,820 --> 01:07:13,710 Except for methadone and rehab. She's my best friend. 652 01:07:13,764 --> 01:07:14,864 Stop. 653 01:07:25,438 --> 01:07:26,518 Anna? 654 01:07:32,647 --> 01:07:34,307 She hang up? 655 01:07:35,811 --> 01:07:37,821 Why can't you keep your mouth shut, huh? 656 01:07:37,874 --> 01:07:40,304 - Why? Why? - Sorry. 657 01:07:40,357 --> 01:07:42,677 Do I have to explain every single thing to you? 658 01:07:46,365 --> 01:07:50,475 I'm sorry, baba. I didn't mean to make you angry. 659 01:07:50,530 --> 01:07:51,541 - I'm sorry. - It's okay. It's okay. 660 01:07:51,571 --> 01:07:53,501 - I'm sorry! - It's okay, it's okay. 661 01:07:53,554 --> 01:07:58,354 It's not your fault. I should have prepared you better. 662 01:08:00,262 --> 01:08:02,022 Sorry. 663 01:08:39,651 --> 01:08:41,091 Peter is... 664 01:08:43,937 --> 01:08:48,537 I can handle the truth. I can handle it. 665 01:09:08,387 --> 01:09:10,337 Don't be shy... 666 01:09:10,390 --> 01:09:12,390 Don't be shy, but try... 667 01:09:13,974 --> 01:09:15,554 Don't be shy... 668 01:09:16,858 --> 01:09:18,808 Over the next few weeks I conducted a 669 01:09:18,860 --> 01:09:21,990 post-mortem on the video chat incident. 670 01:09:22,044 --> 01:09:24,994 My dad told me forget about it. But my dad 671 01:09:25,048 --> 01:09:28,118 seemed hurt by my actions. I don't want 672 01:09:28,172 --> 01:09:30,491 my dad to be hurt again because of me. 673 01:09:30,544 --> 01:09:34,805 Because my dad's the best, he's the best, he's the best. 674 01:09:34,860 --> 01:09:37,070 My dad is the best, he's the best 675 01:09:37,123 --> 01:09:39,263 he's the best. 676 01:09:43,171 --> 01:09:46,261 I've got the inability to make a real-time inference, 677 01:09:46,315 --> 01:09:49,325 that means I cannot take a hint to all of you in plain English. 678 01:09:49,378 --> 01:09:52,688 Is lying always bad? Can there be an exception? 679 01:09:52,743 --> 01:09:54,693 So I sat down, took a deep breath, 680 01:09:54,745 --> 01:09:57,665 did my research on the art of deception. 681 01:09:58,730 --> 01:09:59,890 You see... 682 01:10:00,853 --> 01:10:04,673 Love is not the opposite of hate but is indifference, 683 01:10:05,419 --> 01:10:09,029 Hate and love can coexist in my research and experience, 684 01:10:09,083 --> 01:10:14,163 Dad wants Anna back so that is love and not indifference, 685 01:10:14,220 --> 01:10:17,820 But Anna's mad at dad so that is hate but not indifference, 686 01:10:17,874 --> 01:10:21,724 But hate does not disprove that there is love in some significance, 687 01:10:21,779 --> 01:10:26,179 But dad cannot rely on Dede's valuable assistance, 688 01:10:26,235 --> 01:10:30,075 Cuz Dede's link to Anna is the path of most resistance, 689 01:10:30,129 --> 01:10:34,539 But if that's the case that's also hate but not indifference. 690 01:10:35,336 --> 01:10:39,326 Thus, the only way to prove that love is truly in existence, 691 01:10:39,381 --> 01:10:43,091 is to reunite the four of us in spite of our long distance. 692 01:10:43,146 --> 01:10:48,616 Cuz Dede is my friend and dad is dad and dad loves Anna, 693 01:10:48,673 --> 01:10:52,713 but that will mean there needs to be a pièce de résistance. 694 01:10:53,579 --> 01:10:55,729 So, in this web of love and hate, 695 01:10:55,782 --> 01:10:58,165 the only person not entangled or mangled 696 01:10:58,195 --> 01:11:00,575 emotionally dismantled in shambles 697 01:11:00,628 --> 01:11:03,698 who can handle in wrangle this conundrum... 698 01:11:03,751 --> 01:11:05,391 is me. 699 01:12:53,909 --> 01:12:56,919 It's alright don't cry, together you and I, 700 01:12:56,973 --> 01:12:59,923 Don't be shy but try, together you and I. 701 01:12:59,977 --> 01:13:04,927 Find a way to fly, together you and I, 702 01:13:04,983 --> 01:13:08,923 Find a way to fly, together you and I. 703 01:13:29,213 --> 01:13:33,043 A plane with Wi-Fi service is my favorite place to be, 704 01:13:33,098 --> 01:13:38,788 I reviewed my whole itinerary every step from A to Z. 705 01:13:38,845 --> 01:13:42,235 Sitting snugly on a plane, its tranquility, 706 01:13:42,290 --> 01:13:45,959 stability, rigidity, is naturally, 707 01:13:46,013 --> 01:13:49,934 continually and predictably a relaxing 708 01:13:49,989 --> 01:13:54,209 place to be, for me, to breathe, 709 01:13:54,265 --> 01:13:57,095 without becoming crazy. 710 01:13:57,148 --> 01:13:59,268 Ah! Finally! 711 01:13:59,992 --> 01:14:01,992 So sleepy. 712 01:15:29,063 --> 01:15:37,063 It's alright don't cry, together you and I, It's alright don't cry, together you and I. 713 01:15:39,556 --> 01:15:47,095 Don't be shy but try, together you and I, Don't be shy but try, together you and I. 714 01:15:48,187 --> 01:15:52,887 Don't be shy but try, together you and I. 715 01:15:54,455 --> 01:15:56,235 Are going to The Peak? 716 01:15:59,421 --> 01:16:01,421 Are going to The Peak? 717 01:16:03,647 --> 01:16:05,967 Are going to The Peak? 718 01:16:06,650 --> 01:16:08,890 Are going to The Peak? 719 01:16:14,140 --> 01:16:16,140 Are going to The Peak? 720 01:16:16,723 --> 01:16:19,983 Yay! 721 01:16:52,948 --> 01:16:56,298 In many romantic stories that end so happily, 722 01:16:56,353 --> 01:17:00,593 Typically has a backdrop with the utmost majesty. 723 01:17:01,639 --> 01:17:05,149 So only when my plane touched down would I tell them where I'd be, 724 01:17:05,204 --> 01:17:09,844 A landmark in the city, a lookout called The Peak. 725 01:17:10,811 --> 01:17:12,301 This may be insanity, 726 01:17:12,353 --> 01:17:14,823 so callously, walking into a catastrophe, 727 01:17:14,876 --> 01:17:18,476 if the timing didn't work out so precisely. 728 01:17:19,061 --> 01:17:21,191 But I absolutely in totality put my 729 01:17:21,244 --> 01:17:23,054 mortality in the hands of my greatest 730 01:17:23,106 --> 01:17:25,756 fantasy that eventually we will finally 731 01:17:25,809 --> 01:17:29,789 become an incredibly happy family. 732 01:17:31,216 --> 01:17:38,836 A family, a family, a family, a family. 733 01:18:01,294 --> 01:18:09,294 Reach out, aim high, together you and I, Reach out, aim high, together you and I. 734 01:18:17,174 --> 01:18:22,624 That was Laura's version, but it wasn't exactly what happened. 735 01:18:22,681 --> 01:18:27,071 She had a panic attack after she lost her phone. 736 01:18:27,126 --> 01:18:29,335 She managed to get help from a group of 737 01:18:29,388 --> 01:18:31,679 girls on their bachelorette party 738 01:18:31,732 --> 01:18:34,892 who brought her to the train security staff. 739 01:18:39,942 --> 01:18:43,566 We were relieved, angry and frankly 740 01:18:43,596 --> 01:18:47,477 exhausted, but Laura insisted on going to. 741 01:18:47,532 --> 01:18:51,812 The Peak as planned. There was no denying her. 742 01:18:52,518 --> 01:18:54,968 We didn't say much to each other that night. 743 01:18:55,021 --> 01:18:57,471 It was like Double Happiness, 744 01:18:57,524 --> 01:19:01,784 seeing Peter, and hearing the news about you. 745 01:19:02,470 --> 01:19:06,510 Dede, I'm sorry for how I've treated you. 746 01:19:08,438 --> 01:19:16,267 I was so ashamed of my past, and I'm so worried 747 01:19:16,327 --> 01:19:20,563 and afraid for you. Afraid that you would 748 01:19:20,593 --> 01:19:25,773 follow in my footsteps, and make the same mistakes I made. 749 01:19:28,603 --> 01:19:32,113 But from the moment I held you in my arms, 750 01:19:32,167 --> 01:19:36,607 you're the best thing to have ever happened to me. 751 01:19:38,215 --> 01:19:42,105 You gave me a second chance for a better life, 752 01:19:42,160 --> 01:19:44,380 a new life. 753 01:19:46,025 --> 01:19:48,855 And so when I heard about your baby, 754 01:19:48,908 --> 01:19:54,638 and that I was going to be a grandmother, 755 01:19:54,696 --> 01:20:00,306 that night was the best night of my life because of you. 756 01:20:00,363 --> 01:20:07,263 I love you so much Dede. You mean everything to me. 757 01:20:13,679 --> 01:20:18,009 About a month after that, Anna quit her job, 758 01:20:18,065 --> 01:20:20,245 and moved back to LA. 759 01:20:20,608 --> 01:20:24,358 - How's my tie? - My makeup? 760 01:20:24,413 --> 01:20:26,593 Any reflection on my glasses? No? 761 01:20:27,336 --> 01:20:30,536 They were married a few months later. 762 01:20:31,041 --> 01:20:32,061 Cheese. 763 01:20:33,244 --> 01:20:36,354 I still call him Peter, and Laura 764 01:20:36,408 --> 01:20:38,638 still calls my mom Anna. 765 01:20:38,691 --> 01:20:41,421 But they all call me Mommy. 766 01:20:41,474 --> 01:20:44,354 I feel as close to a hippo as I've ever felt in my whole life. 767 01:20:45,179 --> 01:20:46,609 And when the doctor first told me 768 01:20:46,661 --> 01:20:49,831 I was pregnant with you, I wasn't excited like I thought I'd be. 769 01:20:49,885 --> 01:20:52,025 I was scared for you. 770 01:20:53,409 --> 01:20:55,449 I was scared for me. 771 01:20:56,112 --> 01:20:57,322 Is she moving yet? 772 01:20:57,374 --> 01:21:00,833 Yeah she is, you wanna try see if you can feel it? Put your hand on. 773 01:21:01,639 --> 01:21:04,569 The truth is Izzy that I was, and 774 01:21:04,623 --> 01:21:07,703 I still am an addict. 775 01:21:08,648 --> 01:21:10,877 I felt I needed to come clean so that you knew 776 01:21:10,930 --> 01:21:14,480 the truth, and you knew who I was before 777 01:21:14,534 --> 01:21:17,754 I had you, and how this funny little 778 01:21:17,809 --> 01:21:20,369 family came to be, because the truth is 779 01:21:20,422 --> 01:21:22,976 without auntie Laura I'm not sure I 780 01:21:23,006 --> 01:21:26,016 would have had the courage to become a mom. 781 01:21:26,070 --> 01:21:28,479 She really taught me that I had it 782 01:21:28,532 --> 01:21:31,812 in me to be responsible, to care and love 783 01:21:31,866 --> 01:21:37,477 for someone, but also to care and love for myself. 784 01:21:43,632 --> 01:21:46,045 So I put together this collection of photos 785 01:21:46,075 --> 01:21:49,575 and videos because I wanted you to know the truth. 786 01:21:50,521 --> 01:21:55,390 Who I am, who are family is, and how you came to be 787 01:21:55,446 --> 01:21:57,226 because you're special and important 788 01:21:57,278 --> 01:22:00,029 to each and every one of us. 789 01:22:01,094 --> 01:22:07,174 This is for you Izzy. I love you.